melting mama

Saturday July 4th, 2009

Happy fourth.  Any big plans?  Any BBQ's?  Please send me charred meat on a bone.

We thought this might be a vacation week, but since the job change and what not, not so.   (Whatnot includes Mr. getting home from work at 8:30pm after leaving here at 7am and doing homework until midnight.  I fell asleep on the couch and dreamt about Michael Jackson because it WAS ALL THAT WAS ON THE TV.)

It's likely we wouldn't have gone anywhere anyway.  The buzz term is the 'stay-cation,' right?  We are apparently above the trend, having stay-cated for years!  HA.  Someday.

On that note, I seriously eyed a camping tent yesterday, picking it up and thinking, backyard camping!  Yeah, backyard camping!  But, raccoons that make my trash look like a lion got into it -- I am not so sure anybody would brave it.  Maybe on a porch.

So.  Today.  I don't think I'll be hitting any BBQ's so I am safe from the meat and carb coma.  I would still like some ribs, thanks.

Weight - NO.  Soon.

• Unsweetened soy cappuccino.
• Iced coffee
• Half-slice vegetarian pizza.  (Not charred MEAT, what I wanted.)
• Too. much. bread. dipped. in. oil.  Which, translated to my dinner coming home entirely in a box.  Also, about five sips of a Watermelon Sangria.  Woot.  I wish I could have more, but... just a few sips is good. (Again, not charred meat, though I did smell CHARCOAL.)

Kicking thy own arse.

Weight - Meh.  Someday.

• Unsweetened soy milk cappuccino times a million

• Vitalicious 100 Calorie Vitatop (Tasty, but caused hypoglycemia one hour later.)

• 2 glucose tabs, one cheese stick

6-16-09

Weight - 167  (Yes, it's that 'bad' I WAS 171.)

I ended well yesterday - under 1500 calories.  That's good for me.

• Espresso, soy
• Breakstone's 2% Cottage Cheese (90)
• Supreme Carb Conscious Mini Bar (90) LOVE THIS IDEA - however - it's too expensive for four BITE-SIZE bars.  I would love to see a bag of these - at a discount - like - 25 bars?  I'll make a separate post.

6-15-2009

Weight - ?

Monday again, and another headache.  Dad's on his last week of night classes, so not too many of these super-long days left.  Phew.   I don't feel great this morning. my head is cloudy and icky.  I wish this happened over the weekend instead, I could have gone back to bed.  It feels almost like pre-brain freeze.  I am not a fan.  Hoping I remain upright, it's been way too long to seize NOW, you know?

• Espresso + soy
• Oikos Plain Yogurt + 1/4 cup black beans + Taco seasoning
• BNRG Power Crunch Triple Chocolate Protein Bar
• YouBar Customized Trail Mix
• Espresso + Oh Yeah RTD Chocolate as milk
• Chicken breast, broccoli, spaghetti, alfredo sauce (Maybe 1/2 cup?  I felt it, and quit.)
• 1 Supreme Carb Conscious Bite Protein Bar (83)

6-14-2009

Edited!  Weight - DOWN.  Down down, down, be doo be down, downdowndowndown!  Then I ate a pile of carbs!  :D  -4 lbs from the last weigh in.

Happy Flag Day.  Let your freak flag fly, or something like that.  Mr. has an actual 'weekend' off, and today his former employees are throwing a good-bye party for him, they think he's an alright guy. (It's just a nice song.)  Anyway.

• Espresso/soy
• 1 waffle (Rewarded with instant dump.)
• Lo-Ball Monster Drink
• Bunch of shit at party from 1:30pm-7pm:  1 pc. broccoli, carrot, dip, some wrap appetizer with cream cheese in it, little bits of bread/dip, two cookies, calzone bits, 2.5 light beers.  No sick, no overfull, it was a very. long. time.  (Had I known, I would have gone for the burger/green salad, but I was in front of the picky foods mostly.)
• 9pm: Espresso/soy, 1/2 Power Crunch Bar

6-13-2009

I am up with the birds today, someone needs to inform the small one that I would like to sleep to 6:00am maybe one day a week.  Because when she wakes up at early o'clock it just reminds me that I stayed up too late watching a movie while forcing myself to stay awake - but fell asleep anyway.  Gah.

"I want Shitmunks!"  So, Chipmunks it is.  "Christmaschristmastimeisnear, timeforlaughtertimeforcheer..."  I'm singing this in my sleep.  She's also made herself a snack.  While I went to pee, she had enough time to find Someone's Late Night Snack out on the counter, and brought me her "Mama, I got allll da cookies, see?" a bag of graham crackers.  "Wecanhardlystandthewait, pleaseChristmasdon'tbelate."  Yawn.

• Espresso/soy a few times
• Power Crunch Bar, Triple Chocolate
• Orange Julius Light Smoothie (I sipped it slow, juuuust in case the fruit wanted to kill me.  LOVE.)
• 4 oz Breakstone's Cottage Cheese
• Chicken patty, tomato sauce, mozzarella cheese, green beans

I saved a turtle, got new glasses, got some shopping done.  We lost two kids and went for a walk, at least tried to.  I am disgusted with dog-owners.  I would NEVER, EVER bring my dog to a public park, let her shit all over the place and leave it.  You. have. no. idea. how bad it was.

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6-11-2009

Fck weight.  "Mom threw the scale out the window, I think she's finally cracked."  ^{(The song goes "tv" but can be interchanged.)}

• Outta bed - 1 bite Pure Protein Bar, tasted like dirt this AM, gave it up.
• Double Chocolate Mint CLICK Shake
• Instant Miso Broth
• BNRG Power Crunch Triple Chocolate
• Peanut butter crackers
• Like, five almonds, immediate nausea. 
• Meatloaf, cauliflower/cheese

At 1000 cals at 8pm.

6-8-2009

• Espresso, Calorie Countdown Chocolate Milk (It's almost gone, back to soy, bleeeech)
• 6am - 1/2 BNRG Power Crunch Bar (100)
• Snack - 1 rice cake, chicken breast, mayo
• Lunch - 11 am - The rest of the chicken breast + mayo (it was canned chicken)
• Snack - 1 NSA Skinny Cow Sandwich (140)
• Dinner - 1 NSA Skinny Cow Sandwich (Not even that tasty, why do I do it?)
• 10pm -1 NSA Skinny Cow Sandwich
• 11pm - Crackers with my pill

And, I think that's all, honestly.  *dies from gas*  No sugar added, means, added maltitol. 

6-7-09

• Coffeecoffeecoffee
• Ham + string cheese
• Designer Whey Protein Water (I'll write about this)  
• Nonni's Biscotti 
• 1/2 Hershey's Chocolate Bar 
• Wendy's single patty, no bread, but I made up for it with some fries 
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I'm at about 1K for the day so far. 

Exercise -

Two miles!  Woot.  It's been a long time.  I sweated and everything.  I got a nasty blister, too. HISS.

6/6/09 was a success.

Weight - ?

• Light soy milk cappuccino x's a few
• 4 ounces cottage cheese (90/11)
• 4 ounces cottage cheese (90/11)
• 2 sausage patties (180)
• 1 Flat Out Light Wrap, ham, light cheese stick, mustard (200-250)
• 1/2 Hershey's Chocolate Bar
• Simply Enjoy Antipasto Vegetables, Romano Cheese (This made me sick.  Super.  No digest.  Ouch.)
• 100 calorie pack crackers