Wednesday.
Thursday.

You Make Me Sick.

You make sick
I want you and I'm hatin' it
Got me lit like a candlestick
Get too hot when you touch the tip
I'm feeling it, I gotta get a grip on this
Driving me crazy baby don't you quit
Can't get enough of it
You got me going again
Baby you got me going again
You make sick."

These lyrics, from Pink - describe my addiction to, uh, certain.......................foods.  Even though some of these foods will make me physically sick, I will still push the limits and eat them regardless.

But, not lately.  I haven't had many real good "dumps" lately.  (Not that kind of dumping, you piggy.) 

Perhaps, I am not pushing the limits as far anymore?  Maybe my blood sugar lows have sort of scared me into NOT eating too much of the wrong kind of food?  I don't know - it's just something I realized now - "Man, I haven't really dumped in a while."  Maybe, I'm also realizing the different ways my body reacts to foods that might not be so good for me, and getting better at avoiding them because of that.

I can now tell the difference between a "dumping" and a blood sugar low.  A dumping is entirely different.  It's more more gastric-ally involved - I get nauseated, and within moments, I HAVE TO LAY DOWN.  I never throw up, but I wish I could when it's happening.

The blood sugar low is bizarre - I look and act as if I were intoxicated somehow.  I get shaky, very much so.  My hands tremble.  I sweat.  I may get dizzy.  I start pacing.  I usually do not realize WHAT THE HELL MY PROBLEM IS until someone tells me - or - I note how "stupid" I feel.

Side note:  The day I hit the pole with my car, during a low sugar?  The p-doc I saw *that day* told me that it was probably an episode of a psych issue?  WTF?  This pisses me off now, realizing my symptoms more clearly, what a way to lay blame on things, things that we're not even sure of.

sugar sugar honey honey

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