Fright!

Yesterday was Halloween and while I would like to think it was just a trick -- the scale does not lie -- and I got a serious fright.  No, I mean it.  After last weekend's NY trip, and the fact that I really did not snack at all I thought I would be hanging on to a few pounds lost!  But, oh no, we're right back to where we started, to the:

AW HELLS NAW There Will Be No Further Weight Gain From This Point Forward, You HEAR ME?

There is ZERO reason for my body to maintain ANY weight higher than this, unless I am liquefying Big Macs and drinking them for meals.  This doesn't even have anything to do with Halloween candy -- I didn't buy any -- give any out -- nor take any of the kid's candy!  This is just ME! 

I played with my BMR on the OH Weight Tracker, and it's pretty scary, seeing the calories to maintain size.   Considering:  Your Estimated Resting Metabolic Rate + Activity Factor: 2231 Calories burned?  I have only gained recently, no loss, aside from a 5 lb here, 5 lb there, and back to the same place.  Yes, it's a broken record, however, this is serious now as I refuse to slide into 14-16-18-20-22-24-26-28W, okay? 

You say, "it's not possible," but tell that to the percentage of post-ops who regain most of their weight back, it's too easy at a certain point.

The reality:  I can eat nearly any damn thing I want, most at a normal serving size, and I am hungry every 60-90 minutes.  That there is DANGEROUS. 

I can see a few in the peanut gallery out there giggling, "HAHAHAHA!  Neener neener neener!  We tole you -- Tostito Eater!"  But, lemme tell you, it ain't chips.  It may be BBQ pork.

At least WITHOUT a stomach pouch, I was only hungry at three meal times and maybe a snack or two, and I could get full (or over full of course, I was 300+ lbs!) and remain that way for a long stretch.

The fix?  Duh.  Back to planning, journaling, scheduling, choosing, or as I like to call it, dieting.  "But, it's a lifestyle, not a diet."  Uhhh, yeah, sure it is.

di⋅et

–noun

1.	food and drink considered in terms of its qualities, composition, and its effects on health: Milk is a wholesome article of diet.

2.	a particular selection of food, esp. as designed or prescribed to improve a person's physical condition or to prevent or treat a disease: a diet low in sugar.

3.	such a selection or a limitation on the amount a person eats for reducing weight: No pie for me, I'm on a diet.

4.	the foods eaten, as by a particular person or group: The native diet consists of fish and fruit.

5.	food or feed habitually eaten or provided: The rabbits were fed a diet of carrots and lettuce.

6.	anything that is habitually provided or partaken of: Television has given us a steady diet of game shows and soap operas.

–verb (used with object)

7.	to regulate the food of, esp. in order to improve the physical condition.

8.

to feed.

–verb (used without object)

9.	to select or limit the food one eats to improve one's physical condition or to lose weight: I've dieted all month and lost only one pound.

10.	to eat or feed according to the requirements of a diet.

–adjective

suitable for consumption with a weight-reduction diet; dietetic: diet soft drinks.

Yep. Not a lifestyle, unless it's sold to you that way.  All diet-plans are sold as lifestyles, to make them palatable -- to show The Quality Of Life As A Thin Person. 

"Nothing tastes as better as thin feels?"  Especially when you're eating rodent pellets.

Why the fuck else would one eat Jenny Craig?  "Because it tastes good?" 

And, after watching a DS'er eat dinner this week, HOT DAMN WOULD WE LOVE TO HAVE THAT LIFESTYLE?!?!

Not. going. there.  But, as I slug back a protein shake with added fruit and fiber, I will state for the record, that it's on.  Again.  And, likely again, and again.  This is the lifestyle I chose.

Without further ado today's lifestyle:

• Espresso + soy milk (First thing to try to "cut back" the amount of milk I have been using. Gah.)
• ISS OhYeah! Nutritional Shake, Vanilla Creme
• • 1/2 cup frozen mixed berries, 1 TBSP Flaxseed