House Ugly.

We haven't done much of anything to fix this house or update it.  Aside from emergencies, that is, we've had several plumbing emergencies, a septic emergency, a couple floods, and so on.  Much of that is because we got into serious debt updating parts of our last house, and now, to do it all over again will take time.  

Among the needs?  Fixing the downstairs bathroom, dealing with the half-finished basement which was apparently where The Party Was At for the previous owners.  

(Cigarette burn holes in the wood, a list of phone numbers scrawled into the wood above my freezer, footprints on the wall in the "family room," that scare my girls, because how did feet get THERE?)

Replacing siding -- part of which has apparent bullet holes, etc..etc.  And, I can't even get started on the yard, that just makes me angry.

I have had no inspiration to do anything with the inside of the house.  Every wall is painted generic taupe -- since we bought this as a bank-repo'ed house -- it was a flip.  They painted over all the evils, cleaned it bare, scrubbed the floors and sold it at a profit.  

It has zero personality, aside from the redneck homemade BB gun holes by the porch, and graffiti in the basement.  There's even a tiny Anarchy symbol inscribed on my daughters' door in the basement.  Lovely.

Have I mentioned that I LOATHE this house?  Recently?  No?  Let me tell you again.  I hate it.

But, it's where we live.  I am fortunate enough that we HAVE a house.  It's twice the size of our last house, and I am thankful to have enough space to hide from my kids.  It's unlikely that we will move again -- at least not unless it became profitable to do so.  HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

I guess I have to learn to like it, and start doing work to it.  It may take forever or longer considering my lack of hand-eye coordination aka hiring nice mens to come and do it, but, I will.  

What prompted this?  I saw wallpaper.  I have a room large enough to pull this off:

 

Or a reasonable facsimile.  Sure, I could do it, but it will peel off and be crooked.  But, it's the inspiration to get STARTED somehow, even if it just means getting a SHELF up.