Oatmeal in my head.

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Oatmeal in my head.

06/10/2012

Someone left me a comment on my Melting Mama fan page today,

"I have been trying to sort thru it but I am confused. Also, you seem to be angry. Maybe I am in the wrong place. I guess I expected a step-by-step from your surgery til now. I guess I will keep looking."

Oh.

I am, sorry? It should be mentioned that this was #2 in a set of private messages via Facebook. I do not recall seeing the first message, which came a few weeks ago.

If I seem angry right now it's because my brain is full of oatmeal. What flavor? I don't know. Feels kinda banana-ish.

If you have been able to follow the all-over-the-place updates, you might know that I recently started a new medication for seizures.

It was not working, and I was having more seizures than typical. My brain is a labyrinth and it's broken.

My medication dose was upped this past week, and I am literally mush. I am on the maximum dose of a medication with a black-box warning.

Rawr.

Also note: I've received enough WLS-community related hate mail this past week to hold me a while. I'mma ask you ONE TIME to not send me angry mails. I'm a little touchy.

By the way, thanks! Love you too!

That, and, I am often just a bitch. Snarky bitch is my forte. I... apologize?

I had weight loss surgery 8 years and 2 months ago. I was in the planning stages 9 years ago. So, you'd like 10 years of history, blogged?

Hot dayum. I do not know anyone who's blogged that long. (If'n you have a 10+ year weight loss surgery blog, please to link it up in the comments!)

I was not writing a blog before or when I had weight loss surgery, and when I started composing update-type posts it was in email form. Those updates are long since gone. I posted in email groups, then message board forums, and eventually to a blog-style entry on Blogspot. I wasn't writing for anyone else back then, and I never thought anyone would ever read my schtuff. This was also, more than nine years ago.

If I knew then what I know now, I may have posted on purpose, in order, and categorically. It may have been helpful to someone else -- or not? I don't know. I really don't know. I was never a weight loss surgery blogger anyway. I'm not about selling a positive experience. I am all for neutrality and reality.

It wasn't ever really about... me. Does that make sense? It still isn't. I specifically avoid lots of personal updates because people get suicidal reading my entries! "OMG, I am SO. SORRY." Please no.

I liked to share stories, things from the internet, photos, funny things, science bits and pieces, pop culture things, and products and services for our WLS community, it wasn't supposed to be All About Me. It still isn't. Maybe I shoulda waited until Tumblr came out -- or -- Facebook?

I assumed that people would be bored to tears by constant barrage of updates about my ass, because they are!

"I lost .094 pounds today! I pooped today! I ate food or I didn't. Look at my floppy arms today! Look how important I am! Look at my new jeans! Look at how I can fit sideways into this hole!"

We do not give a single gram of ______.

Weight loss blogs can be awfully boring to read, particularly because they are so very dry and dull. Many of them just .....stop! (Go look around at the RSS feeds you were following. Go. I'll wait. Note how many of them just... stop being updated. Aside from the those people who actually go and do life in a Big Way, many people quit, give up, regain and ... it's hard to watch.)

I will add weight loss related vlogs. Ain't NOBODY want to watch us ramble on for 3-5-10-15-or GOD FORBID 20 minutes about our weight loss related updates. AIN'T NO-BODY. I have much of my day free to do just that, and, ladies, most of us are BORING. Including me. OMG. It kills me to watch my own shit, which is why I end up deleting damn near all of my updates after I realize they are still there.

Yawn. Granted, some of y'all make great entries, most of the weight loss updates are like a root canal. Dry. Unmedicated. And kill me. I can see the draw for newbies looking for specific topics -- but for general updates regarding a single person's weight loss surgery journey?

Most of us would rather eat toenail clippings than to hear ONE. MORE. TIME. how many weeks you have been maintaining your weight. Nobody cares about you - they want input that is going to help them. Specifically. Specific topics to help themselves, not you. Sad, but it's true.

And also, I am super ADD. LIKE YOU DIDN'T NOTICE?! MM is NOT impulsive, no way! *innocent look* Do you know how long it takes me to write one blog post? It's embarrassingly long, because? I walk AWAY!

*goes to get a drink, forgets where she was going, puts in a load of laundry, LOOK A TURKEY IN THE DRIVEWAY, gets a drink, Mmm, snacktime, HEY KID PUT THAT DOWN, crap I burned the tomato sauce... oh! the dishes are done....*

It is a challenge to get my washed laundry in a drawer or remembering to make a phone call, so organizing anything beyond the simplest things is asking me to forget what I was doing On The Way To Do It. I will never be organized.

I guess this was my long answer to Why I Don't Make Updates, Or Never Did? Because. It just did not matter to me? The juicy part of gastric bypass - happened immediately and was done by 14 months post op. Short version: I lost the weight. The long version is what you see here, because, like the tagline I use sometimes - WLS, because it is for life.

If you want more - check the archives - or use the search function - there are 5500+ entries here - I promise only 10% are snarky, or 25% -

Oatmeal in my head.

06/10/2012

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